One Monday morning I had to go someplace. At 10 a.m. it was black outside (not
dark, BLACK). The wind was strong and extremely uncomfortable. It was raining or
snowing, definitely something in between. It was absolutely horrible. But
typical, it was January after all. After walking for what seemed to be hours, I
saw something. Something different, it didn’t quite belong where it was. It
seemed like an
uninvited guest, different from everything around and, well, not the same
"scene". Through a window front I saw a white room, illuminated and what’s more,
flowers! Vivid, colourful and large! Immediately I realized, I wanted to live
there. I decided that my previous appointment wasn’t so important after all so I
went inside. And here I was. Days and weeks went by. Sometimes there were
visitors, though I doubt they came for me. In fact they didn’t seem to see me at
all. They came, as I had, to see the flowers, but left sooner or later. It was
fascinating to observe these people. Some of them left quickly, it seemed they
didn’t agree with what they saw. This intrigued me. After a couple of days I
heard a comment from one of them. One said, that this was at the end of the day
quite banal. "What’s new about flowers painted with oil on canvas?" I was
startled, for I hadn’t thought about it that way. With horror I thought of the
numerous "flower pictures" and "still-lives" I had seen in my life and always
considered so boring. What had happened that day I wandered in? Had I been so
depressed not to notice it was a trap? I was paralysed. What had I done? Had I
been living with mediocre still- life’s all this time? Hours later I decided I
needed to know more and not to let this one comment put me out of balance. I
looked at the flowers again. They really were big, huge actually. What flowers
were they? I hadn’t given it any thought. I only knew roses and tulips and the
kinds you get in the store for a friend’s birthday. These were definitely not of
that sort, but familiar, I had seen them a hundred times before outside this
room. During the next days I started to observe the visitors a bit more. Some of
them had to know what flowers we were looking at. This time I paid more
attention to the people who stayed longer. I had paid little attention to them
before, since I thought we had the same understanding. But as I found out this
was not the case. The people who liked the pictures did not necessarily care to
reflect much on them. Many were just shouting out "how marvellous", "look how
beautiful they are " which made me worry again. At last I overheard one person
saying something that struck me. Evidently, all the flowers were weed! They were
actually weed that people took out of their gardens in the summertime, poisoned
them in order to plant other flowers there, probably roses and tulips ect. I was
bewildered, if they were weed, why the exclamations " marvellous" and
"beautiful"? What was all this about? At this point I almost regretted ever to
have come here. Time went by and I lost myself in deep thinking about everything
I had heard and experienced since I lived here. These paintings were in any case
curious. Everything seemed to be "wrong" about them. They were of flowers. Not
even "real" flowers, but weed! Still, they were beautiful; some found them too
beautiful, banal. They were shown at a time when they had no competition and
where everything around them was plain ugly. They were very traditional on their
canvases painted with oil and yet, were very aggressive. In their banality they
were contradictory. I realized, this was the reason for my coming and staying
here. At that moment we became friends. Time passed and one day all the
paintings were gone. It was Monday
morning just after 10 a.m. I thought it was about time to get going.